If you wish for light, be ready to receive light.
Growing up we were all fed unconscious beliefs and messages about receiving. One of the songs I grew up singing was, “God loves a cheerful giver, give it all you got” and at church every Sunday I would say, “Lord I am not worthy to receive.” Over time, these beliefs became normalized and became my truth.
I never realized how deeply I believed that I didn’t deserve to receive, until I started a spiritual practice in 2008.
When we believe that giving is a job we must endure, or that we are not worthy to receive unless we give, then over time, we slowly but surely wear down the essence of our spirit and our soul’s purpose.
We give out, not because we want to, but because we should, and in the end, our physical and mental health takes its toll, leaving us unable to receive or give fully.
Exercising, working long hours, traveling, socializing, giving to our families, our friends, charities and overdosing on-screen time, are just a few ways we give out, leaving us feeling exhausted, depleted and running on empty.
So how do we transition from this deep unconscious denial of receiving? Not easy to do when we are programmed to do the opposite.
So at first receiving feels wrong. Receiving brings up feelings of guilt. Receiving triggers memories we don’t have enough time, energy or deserve to receive, and the list goes on.
But why would I deny myself a gift that not only nurtures my every need, but keeps my mind and my health energized, alive and wanting to give freely?
Everyone needs to answer that question honestly, but for me, when I surrender to this beautiful space and receive, my body’s ability to heal, nurture and connect deeply, happens naturally.
That’s more than enough reasons for me to accept the gift of receiving.