“The most precious light is the one that visits you in your darkest hour!”
I was listening to a Tara Brach podcast recently and she asked the audience, “What are you unwilling to feel?”
Her question gave me pause as I asked, “What fears or feelings am I disconnecting from or diminishing in me? and why?
I have often believed in the illusion that I can ignore my fears and yet, trying to avoid them is insane, because fear will just appear in another form. Like shame, depression, anxiety, anger, or in physical pain or chronic health problems. No matter what, fear always finds its way back to the surface.
Over time, I have learned to sit with my fears, and although I have never felt safe or comfortable in their company, I have learned to trust they are here to teach me and to grow me.
From this space I have learned to understand that they are not ‘my fears’ they are ‘the fears’ and this helps me release them more readily.
I have learned to trust that when I face them and understand them, they leave willingly, and their departure always empowers me and expands all my experiences in life.
Search the Darkness by RUMI
Sit with your friends; don’t go back to sleep
Don’t sink like a fish to the bottom of the sea.
Life’s water flows from darkness.
Search the darkness don’t run from it.
Night travelers are full of light,
and you are, too; don’t leave this companionship.
Be a wakeful candle in a golden dish,
don’t slip into the dirt like quick silver.
The moon appears for the night travelers,
be watchful when the moon is full.